I had a long road ahead of me and a lot to learn. I guess that’s one of the reasons women are pregnant so long. It gives us time to figure stuff out. To read a book or two before taking on the biggest responsibility and blessing that life will ever bring. I remember having all sorts of butterflies in my stomach that day- both the kind that are there when you’re happy and the kind that are there when you’re scared. I knew that what was about to happen would be awesome. But I never could have imagined it being this awesome. That’s why I get so excited when I find out a friend of mine is pregnant. I know firsthand what they’re about to experience- the ocean of emotions and tsunamis of joy nobody can ever prepare you for.
Reading through some of my first posts, I remember starting this blog without knowing how to articulate what I was feeling. I loved writing, but I wasn’t sure what to share or how to share it. I knew I wanted to keep family and friends updated about my pregnancy (and eventually the baby), but I didn’t know how much they would care to know. I kept it pretty simple back then. I wasn’t 100% on board with the idea of blogging. Then, as this blog grew, I realized how much it was becoming more than just a way to keep my family updated. It had become an outlet for me. A way to document the experience of carrying a life around inside me. A way to share the tears in my eyes and the warmth in my heart. A place to give advice and take advice.
I love that I can look back through my pregnancy and relive all the little moments that I’ve kept here, safe from the fading of memory. I also love that people have found this blog helpful, interesting, or entertaining. I’m really glad I started doing this, and I hope to continue for a while- forever, maybe.
And as for pregnancy, I kind of miss it. I’m not quite ready to do it all over again, but I know that I will be in the not-so-distant future. I just feel like I have so much love to give. I was meant to be a mama. When the time does come, si dios quiere, I look forward to going down this road again knowing a little bit more about what to expect (but still having a lot to learn). And I look forward to memorializing it all here.
So Happy Independence Day, everyone!
This day will forever be just a little bit extra special to me.