36 Weeks

Size of Baby: Could vary at this point. About 6 pounds and 20 inches. 
Symptoms: Sore ribs, backaches, heartburn, frequent urination, some pelvic pressure…
Fetal Movement: Baby Eva likes to kick me in the ribs a lot. She also gets hiccups at least twice a day now. 
Sleep: Terrible. This morning I’ve woken with horrible back pain. 
Cravings: Nothing
Aversions: Nothing
Belly Button: Very stretched out and shallow. I can see a mole in there that I haven’t seen since I was a kid.
Best Moment This Week: Going to the doctor and finding out baby is head down and I started to lose my mucous plug!
What I Look Forward To: Being full term this time next week!!! And hopefully I’ll be able to finish Eva’s nursery soon.

I can’t believe I only have about 28 days left!!!

Nine Months

Dear Baby Eva,

Today marks the beginning of my ninth and final month of being pregnant with you. I only have one more month to place my hands on my belly and feel you wiggling around inside me. One more month to dream about what you’ll look like and wonder what life will be like when you arrive. One more month to have you all to myself. 

Despite being so anxious to meet you everyday, time has passed rather quickly. I still remember every single detail about the day I found out I was expecting you seven months ago. I guess that’s something I’ll never forget. Since then, I’ve grown you from the size of a blueberry to a size of a honeydew melon- every tiny bone and every perfect eyelash. And since then, I’ve grown to love you more and more each day. 

I can’t say we have everything ready for your arrival yet. I haven’t packed my hospital bag and your nursery still needs a few finishing touches. I hope you like black, pink, and skulls. Sometimes I wonder if you’ll like having punk rock parents. Maybe you’ll wish we were more traditional like all the other kids’ parents. Maybe you’ll think we’re weird. Whatever the case may be, I hope you always remember that the most important thing is to be yourself. We’ll love you no matter what music or style you like. When you get a little older I’ll let you pick out your own decorations and colors for your room. I look forward to it. I can’t wait to see the expressions of your very own personality. 

Other than that, we already have diapers and bottles and everything we need to take care of you… except maybe experience. Sometimes I’m nervous that I won’t know what to do or that I’ll do something wrong. I wish we lived closer to your grandparents so they could teach me. I guess they’re only a phone call away, though. I think we’ll be alright. I hope you have a little bit of patience for us. If you’re like your mommy, you probably won’t! 

So for the next month I’m going to try and look past all the discomforts of pregnancy- the achy back, the tender ribs (where you’re currently resting your feet),  the heartburn, etc.- and treasure every second of having you safe in my belly. Soon this adventure of pregnancy will end and another will begin- a lifetime (God willing) of being your mother. 


Mom Would Go.

 I knew I wanted this sticker one day since I first saw it on my friend’s mom’s car when I was a grom back at the Jetties (our home surf break back in Texas). I was a veeerrry long way from even thinking about being a mom, but I knew that sticker described my future mom-ness and I would totally be sporting it one day.
The sticker is a play off the phrase “Eddie Would Go,” which describes the late Hawaiian surfer Eddie Aikau. He was one of the first surfers to charge the big waves of Hawaii back when there were only dirt roads to North Shore and no lifeguards to save you. (In fact, he became one of the first lifeguards.) The phrase refers to a fateful day when he set sail on a traditionally-built replica of a double-hull canoe the ancient Hawaiians sailed to Hawaii on from Tahiti. He and his crew were going to reenact the path their ancestors took thousands of years ago. Not long after the crew set sail, they hit a rough patch of swell and weather and the boat capsized. They had no way to alert anyone of their condition, but they could faintly see the island of Kaua’i in the distance. As the crew hung on for their lives, Eddie hopped on his surfboard and decided he was going to paddle to land for help. Meanwhile, an airplane spotted the crew from overhead and they were eventually helped. Eddie, on the other hand, was never found. He became a hero to Hawaiians and surfers everywhere, not only for his fearlessness in charging big waves, but because he gave his life to try and help his friends. Now, when the surf gets over 40 feet in Waimea Bay (which is huge & doesn’t happen often), Quiksilver holds a memorial surf contest in honor of Eddie Aikau. Many surfers remember him every day with an “Eddie Would Go” bumper sticker on their car. (I recommend reading the whole story in “Eddie Would Go” by Stuart Holmes Coleman if you’re interested. Great book.)
I may not charge 40-foot waves on North Shore, but I hope to never stop surfing until I break a hip or die or something, and I know I’ll be the kind of mom who will lift school buses for my babies. I’d already do anything for Eva and I haven’t even met her yet. I can’t believe I’m a mom now (some would say soon-to-be) and I can’t believe I’m actually sporting this sticker on my truck that I first saw over ten years ago. Life is pretty crazy.